Tuesday, 19 June 2012
Mental Health and mornings!
Some days I feel so down I don't bother getting up until lunch time. Other days I might get up and just sit there but now and again I feel able to cope and I can get up at a reasonable hour and do something. It is the constant thoughts and intense dreams that tire me out! Thoughts about the pressure I am putting on my family by being upset, not being able to work, not being able to function properly. I have thoughts of them being better off without me and guilt that I am ill. It feels lame when people ask me how long I have been off and what do I do with myself and I tell them four months and that I o not do anything really. I feel that I am walking in concrete that my emotions have taken overmuch body and that I have been in a boxing ring! I feel a failure most days, I feel upset that I studied so hard to become a lawyer and it seems all for nothing. No ideas if I will go back to my current employer,Or when I will be able to go to work. The pressure Is on my husband in terms of income and I worry that may become unbearable for him.